Monday, October 12, 2015

"What Number Is This"

I’ve never been an especially gracious loser, especially when it comes to girlfriends. This is a rather nasty little song which reflects that pattern. I recorded it many years ago on one of my early attempts at multi-tracking. I’ve lost many of my first recordings, sometimes deliberately, but now I wish I had them back. I regret having so many regrets. 

What Number Is This

© 1985 Brian Hutzell

I always trusted you
Never thought you could be so cruel
I believed your little stories were true
Like telling fairy tales to a fool
But I am wiser
And the things that I have learned
Are churning up the water
You’re on the stake and you’re ready to burn

Tell me, now that I know
How long’s this been going on
How often have I been led along
What number is this
How many secrets have you kept from me
What number is this
How many stories can you tell
What number is this
How many lovers have you slept beside
The joke’s on me
Because I thought I knew you well

You said you loved me
Said you’d like to share your life with me
I thought you'd be perfect company
I was mistaken, it’s plain to see
But now I know’
I was just another game for you
Just a chance for you to prove
To yourself you’ve still got the moves

Tell me, now that I know
How long’s this been going on
How often have I been led along
What number is this
How many secrets have you kept from me
What number is this
How many stories can you tell
What number is this
How many lovers have you slept beside
The joke’s on me
Because I thought I knew you well

You played with emotions that weren’t your own
Things that should be left alone
Now it’s time to come home
You were found lying on your bed
With a bullet in your head
And the note beside you said:

This time the prey you picked
Was stronger than yourself
I won’t be a trophy on your shelf
What number is this
How many secrets have you kept from me
What number is this
How many stories can you tell
What number is this
How many lovers have you slept beside
The joke’s on you
Because I knew you too well



"BC-15"

Brian Hutzell


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