"I Wanna Make You Cry"

Gee, you might think I was insecure in my romantic relationships. What unpleasant lyrics, yet I recall the melody being rather catchy. No matter; I never recorded this one. No one with even half a poet’s heart would ever write something like this. I’ve been reading Patti Smith’s M Train. Every paragraph is filled with literary and artistic references. Every other paragraph comes with a moment of insight or inspiration. She prays. She reads Ibsen. She drinks tea in tiny cafes in every corner of the globe, communes with nature, feels everything intensely, finds deep meaning in every mosquito. How can anyone be so impossibly poetic and Bohemian? There she is: the High Priestess of Punk. The successful poetess of CBGBs. I can’t afford to be that poetic and Bohemian. It takes a lot of money to live like you don’t care about money. I like her anyway.

Current listening: Tri Atma, Ka Jakee Music

I Wanna Make You Cry

© 1984 Brian Hutzell

What should I have to cry by myself

Why should I let your new love put me on the shelf?

Why should I be alone

Why should I take the blame

I want to share it with you

I want you to feel the same

I wanna make you cry

I wanna make you feel miserable

Gonna pile on the guilt

Make your romance unbearable

I wanna see you die

Like I’ve already done

Don’t want you loving someone else

Don’t want you having fun

Without me

Without me

I can’t tell you to come back to me

But I can’t change the fact you made me angry

Now I’ve cried long enough

And I’m turning on you

I want to show you how it feels

I want you to suffer too

I wanna make you cry

And I will not sleep

Till you lie awake nights

And you hurt down deep

I wanna make you lie

On the nails that were meant for me

And when I hear you scream out

I’ll be in ecstasy

Without you

Without you

“December Blues 3”

Brian Hutzell

from December Blues

Part 12 of MMXIII Variations