"Look"

When Hitomi and I moved to Round Lake and bought a townhouse, it was the beginning of a long downward spiral that just seems to keep spinning lower and lower. Every time I think we’ve hit rock bottom, it turns out I’m wrong, and we sink even further into the hole. We moved from Round Lake to Cambridge, and I dabbled with being an artist. I am a dilettante for sure! But my love for art is real, even if my talent isn’t. When we stupidly left Cambridge, I got rid of all my art supplies, along with some musical equipment, all of which I wish I had back in my possession. What was I thinking?!?

Also in Cambridge, I wrote a few songs, and picked up the trombone again after a long spell away from it. Even since then, I’ve been inexcusably inconsistent with my practicing. Lately, I’ve been doing pretty well with the euphonium, but my goal of practicing 3 hours every day is so hopelessly off schedule, that I will never catch up. And now I have school to worry about. This term is really wearing on me. I’m having second, third, and fourth thoughts about continuing with it at all anywhere.

Current listening: Ultra-Lounge, Volume 10 – A Bachelor in Paris

Look

© 2001 Brian Hutzell

Look

Look around

See the town

See the ground

These words mean nothing

Have no rhythm

Make no sound

Break no hearts

Look!

The sky is falling

But no one cares

No one fears

The end is near

No one looks

They never did

They never will

The sight is beautiful

At last

So beautiful

Slipping into the past

At last

I look

And see the sun going down

To the ground

To the Earth

I have found

“Look”

Brian Hutzell

from Brand New Bouncing Suit